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Confession of a Once-Reluctant Grandmother

May 26th, 2010 by Melinda Blau

It’s the pose that gets me.  He looks so old.  I can’t even see his face, but I know that’s my first grandson, son of my first born.  When I look at that photo, I see pages of the calendar flying into space, the way they showed the passage of time in old movies.   I remember the Before.  When Jen was pregnant, I was happy, but the idea of becoming a grandmother didn’t please me.  How could it?  I didn’t know what that meant, any more than a preganant women knows what it will mean to be a mother.  All I could think about were the images of kindly, white-haired old ladies, knitting booties, waiting for the next visit.  That’s not me, I thought.  I have a life, a career, places to go, people to see–and I’m certainly not old. I was sure I’d love him or her, but I didn’t really get what all the fuss about grandchildren was about.

And then he was born.  I was shocked at how long I could  sit there with him in my arms and just stare at him.  In the months and years that followed, the clever title of a little book written by the late Lois Wyse kept coming back to me:  Grandchildren are so Much Fun I Should Have Had Them First.

He will be eight in November, and as I write this, I am in Paris. Out my window is the Eiffel Tower.  My friends envy my romantic, globe-trotting lifestyle, and I enjoy it too… except that I miss him and his two little brothers every day.  The truth is, now I can’t wait for the next visit.

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2 Responses to “Confession of a Once-Reluctant Grandmother”

  1. Sharon Camp says:

    A mother becomes a true grandmother the day she stops noticing the terrible things her children do because she is so enchanted with the wonderful things her grandchildren do. — Lois Wyse

    I watch Grandmothers with their grandchildren. What a wonderful site to see their faces.

    In a few short months, I will be a Grandmother for the first time. The joy of this experience has to be an enchantment.

  2. Melinda Blau says:

    Sharon, I loved Lois Wyse’s take on grandmotherhood–her classic title: Grandchildren Are So Much Fun, I Should Have Had Them First!

    And you’re ahead of the game: You already know it’s going to be great. You just don’t know HOW great….

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